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命理学术到底是什么？

星座，塔罗，算命，看相，看掌，问神。。。。。。

对这，我很好奇， 越好奇就越想探索，越探索就越有趣。

我并不是迷信

但却亲眼看过解降，问米，问神的事。 很多是别人的，我只是好奇心驱使下参与了。

但有一些确是亲身体验。

一两年前有次陪家人到神庙帮侄女收惊， 那被神俯身的童身竟转向我爸聊起我的感情事（无端端的）。“你想饮女婿茶？难咯，她（指我）的眼在这里的（指着额头）” 问了几句后， ‘他’就走了。再问起那个童身，他却说什么也不知道。第二次故意陪侄女去， 我还没开口，‘他’就说：“晤好打破砂盆问到底”， 哈哈！有点怕，但心里却再想：别以为你真能了解我！

曾经陈小姐帮我做了星盘， 上两个月好奇到神庙问前程， 在加上昨天陪朋友到天珠店算出生日期，

不管西方中方，得到的答案竟然大致相同！！

说 我命好， 事业旺，个性强， 有理想，够坚定，感情事就随缘吧~~ 　

信？？ 不信？？真的不知道， 但却禁不住暗爽！

至于感情事，我也不多想了，平常心看待。　

难道人生真的不能完美？牺牲和拥有该如何平衡

如果必须一物换一物，为什么不能让我自行选择兑换条件？‘你’凭什么帮我决定！！　

predetermination VS freewill

我相信　predetermination with freewill

New Home

Why created another blog????

Just one only and the this is enough for justification!

I don't like the new blog home after upgrade my previous one.

So, i'm now busy to move everything. if I can, to this new home.

~WELCOME~

绝症？

绝症，不治之症也。
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不知多少年前开始，我的手指甲出现凹凸不平的情况。当时没什么医学常识的我也没太过在意。

直到三年前，情况由一个指甲蔓延之另一个，20个指甲全部沦陷。于是就到普通诊所咨询。

结论：fungus infection， 一种不会人传人但却相当纠缠的病

当时医生介绍我到pharmacy买一种叫loceryl的药来外敷。用后情况就慢慢受控制和转好。

但那药蛮贵的，pharmacy的老板好心的叫我到医院检查和拿药。

就这样，2008年，我就到离家不远的政府医院看病。检查出来的结论也是一样~~fungus infection

但那医院没有loceryl (太贵了)所以配给我一种anti-fungus的白cream。follow up了四次后，

发现那药膏并不适合我， 指甲的情况不好反变差。当时医生说最有效的药是loceryl, 可以的话不妨去外面的pharmacy买。唉，于是我又得花上上百元买药！

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最近我人在医院实习，于是想到和医院买可能比较便宜吧！前两天，我咨询邻座的精神科医生相关买药打折的详情。经他热情地帮我打听后得到的结果就是医院好像没提供loceryl。他也真的很好心， 私下请了他在皮肤专科服务的医生朋友来帮我检查。
。。。。。。
不看没事，一看就不得了。那医生竟说我可能患了牛皮癣！！！
他要我竟快到他的部门做详细检查。时间也约好了， 10月28日。
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忧心，但却不能做什么，特意上网查询相关质料，却也越看越优。
牛皮癣就像一种绝症，难痊愈，需长期治疗。严重的甚至能引发其它并发续而夺命。
。。。。。。
这绝症真的找上我了吗？ 极大的可能 是
我终于了解病人的那种担忧和害怕。这两天的我只要一想起那医生的话，心里难免忧伤。
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Many many years ago, I noticed that my finger nails were abnormal (lines cross over nails surface) but I did not give attention to them.

3 years ago, the problem conquered my toenails as well!!! Thus, I checked at clinic and was diagnosed with nails fungus infection. As the clinic don't have suitable medication for me, doctor advised me to buy 'loceryl' at pharmacy.

Loceryl, expensive anti-fungus lacquer!! RM 100+ for 5ml !!

A year later, I sought consultation at government hospital nearby my house. Diagnosis was the same and they offer me an anti-fungus cream to fight my problem. After 4 follow up with the dermatologist, he said the cream might not suitable for me as my condition went down hill. Again, loceryl was suggested (the hospital don't have this). Again~~ Gone my money~~~

Two days ago, when I have my internship at another hospital, I asked my department doctor to check for the lacquer availability and discount. He called to pharmacy but no good news return. Then, he requested his friend, a MO at dermatologist, to advice me.

... ... ... ... ... ...

Bad news, a really bad news, the doctor said: You may have nail proriasis. ==!!

PRORIASIS!!! a hardly cured disease

... ... ... ... ... ...

sad~ sad~sad~

I was then referred to his department for a detail check up in next two weeks.

sad~sad~sad~

Is it true?? no comment, I don't dare to.

But I'm prepare (I have to) if it is true.

追求

一直以来身边的人对于我为什么要读master都抱着不同的意见

有人认为我不能吃苦，把一切看得太理想而不面对事实。经济

有某阿姨认为我不负责任，不养家，为难父母。经济

有更多的人认为我不安于现状，好高骛远，贪图人工高，福利好！

还有一些长辈‘教训’我的父母说：“女孩子让她读那么多书做么？以后益老公！”

叹气。。。。。。无力。。。。。。

我只是认为人生一定要有目标，而这不能只是说而不做。所以我把我想要的，付诸于行动。

那些说我不能吃苦，对父母不负责任的人，

你们又知不知道我的选择其实令我牺牲了不少，限制了不少，更打乱了我的一些生活步骤。

对，我的确是不安于现状！我认为我可以做的更好，可以更靠近我的梦想！

当付出了努力，自然想拥有更好的待遇来回报，这无疑是一种鼓励。

其实我追求的并不完全是物质上的享受，

最大的推动力是能够把梦想实现或至少能逐步靠近，能够成为真真的心理学家。

但没人（包括我自己）能保证，这样梦想能为我带来财富。

支持我的家人朋友 对我存着猜测和不满的人

我一定能够证明我自己的能力和坚持

爸妈，再给我一点时间，我要你们以我为傲！

My plant

一直对花花草草都很感兴趣。这也不知道是我影响了我妈，还是我妈影响了我，哈哈！ 我特别喜欢开花类的，不论颜色和大小，名种或野花，我都喜欢。 以下的种种是我家能看到的。
Plants that can found at my house. All are taking care by me and my mum~

这叫沙漠玫瑰，本地人大都称它为富贵花，品种繁多，颜色个别不同。 我家的品种一般，偏向粉红色。最后一张是两年前买下的，只开过两朵深红的花。This called Desert Rose, differ in colours depend on species. The last photo showed is a plant that we brought 2 years ago, only bloomed once with 2 flowers.

今年新年时在金马伦高原买的。 它们一度因气候不适而差点枯死。在多番抢救下终得救。 图1：站立式猪笼草。 图2：菊科类吧，不清楚。
Brought this year during CNY at Cameron Highland. Nearly wilt due to weather changed. Pic 1: Nepenthes. Pic 2: should be a kind of Chrysanthemum


还有这些.
图1：有抗癌效用的植物 Good for cancer prevention. 图2：茉莉花的一种 a kind of Jasmine. 图3和4：辣椒 Chili. 图5和6：不知名的花 Unknown 图7：鸡冠花的一种 a kind of Cockscomb。图8和9：仙人掌 Cactus.

棺木展 Coffin Exhibition

从印尼回来后，我就决定要去参观国家博物馆所举办的棺木展。于是我约了亮璇,把日期定在27日5月。

Since I came back from Indonesia, I targerted to visit the coffin exhibition at National Museum. I invited Liang Sien to join me and fixed the date on the 27 May 2010.

入门处。 里头播着奇怪的音乐加上灯光效应和冷气，感觉阴森森的。当天不是假日所以很少游客。加上我俩大概只有5-6 人。断断续续的还有一些人，但也不多。当天我还被一位突然出现在我身边的马来女生吓到，心跳加速了不少！

The entrance. With the weird music, lighting effect and air-cond, the situation is a bit scary. The day is weekday so not much visitors. Including 2 of us, there were about 5-6 people at that time. Of course, there were still others visitor walk in and out from the exhibition. One incident happened to me. I was shocked by the sudden existence of a Malay female (in tudung) next to me when I taking photo. She made my heartbeat increase rapidly!

不同姿势的葬法。据历史记载，弯曲法常见于霹雳州和东马，这姿势比较容易让死去的灵魂到达天堂。图1：直躺。图2和3：弯曲

Different burial position. According to the info stated, the bend position would help the soul to reach Nirvana in a faster way. Pic 1: normal. Pic 2 and 3: bend.

不同的葬法。 图1：属土著Temiar的葬法。葬礼后会把死者的物品和住家焚烧。图2：Kuala Selinsing, Perak的船葬始于1500年前。图3和4：瓮葬多见于东马和Langkawi。图5和6：这葬法是把石片一个叠一个的直到形成一个坟墓。图7：Pahang's Bateq族的树葬，目的是远离动物袭击和减低尸臭味。 图8：土族Semai和Temiar的一种只用batik布或白布尸，草席和泥土的葬法。

Different burial traditions. Pic 1: Temiar Tribe burial. The belonging and house of the dead person will be burned after bury. Pic 2: Perak's Kuala Selinsing boat burial originated from 1500 years ago. Pic 3&4: Jar Burial most likely found in East Malaysia and langkawi. Pic 5&6: Stone slab burial. Placed stone slab one by one to form a grave. Pic 7: Pahang's Bateq Tribe burial. Built on the tree branches to avoid disturb by animal and prevent from the odour of decomposing body. Pic 8: Burial of Semai and Temiar tribe. Only use batik or white cloth to shrounded the body and wrapped into woven mat and interred in burial crevice at the bottom of the grave.

富有创意和文化色彩的棺木，不只是来自大马，还包括其他东南亚国家的展览品。图3 是 刻有四脚蜥蜴的小孩棺木。最后一张图所展示的棺木是个用了5位大师和其他工匠，共花了5年的时间和精神所完成的。 据说是受命于当时一位德高望重的领袖为他早逝的爱女所打造的。

Rich with the creative art and cultural sense. These coffins are not only from Malaysia but also from the other countries of South East Aisa. Pic 3 is a child coffin engraved with a lizard on top of the cover. The coffin showed in the last picture is a product from five skilled craftsmen with assistants. They used 5 years to complete this. The coffin is used for the daughter of a powerful Kayan chief as a commemoration for her death.

祭品。Sacrificial offering

富贵集团赞助。Sponsored by Nirvana company.

Other interesting display~~

Pic 1: A chair coffin to place the corpse of VIP in a respective way to decompose and dry until skeleton remain.The bones were then placed into a jar as a final resting place. Pic 2: coffin from Thailand

机缘巧合

没想到真的没想到，我今天竟然会和著名香港作家，深雪，还有她的书迷聚餐！！

一切都在机缘巧合下发生～

应亮璇之约，我出席了深雪的讲座（与星期六下午四点半在Malaysia International Exhibition & Convention Centre举办）。其实我的主要目的是去买九把刀的书。讲座标题是“女人开放，但不豪放”。我对这话题是有点期待。的确，我被她的谈吐风格所吸引。直率得来又不得罪人，而且很有point！开放是mentally的， 豪放是behavior的。 我赞成。讲座会后，我陪亮璇一起上台和她合照 ，拿签名。不知道在什么原因下，我们竟被她的fans邀请出席他们在星期日的聚餐（开始我还以为她是记者，要求访问，哈哈！）。在好奇心的推动下，我应邀了。

在今晚的聚餐中，也不知道是特意安排还是巧合，我和亮璇在没得选择下，坐在深雪的两侧。和名人近距离接触，yeah！出席人数有11位另加深雪。因为我对她的书了解不多（只看了6-7本）所以也没谈些什么特别的。 我发现她的皮肤好美哦！整个感觉都很奇怪，也很新奇，总之很难形容就对了。

亮璇问我下次有机会的话我还会出席码？不知道，可能吧，看看吧！

Unexpectedly, I had dinner with the well known Hong Kong author, Zita's Law and her fans tonight at KL!

Actually it was Liang Sien who invited me to Zita's talk conducted at MIECC on the Saturday (5 Jun 2010). In fact, my main purpose is to buy Giddens's novel. In the end, I was attracted by her talk and the way she response and interact with the audience. After that, I accompanied Liang Sien to go on stage to get her autograph and take photo. Don't know why, we were invited by one of her fans to attend their gathering on Sunday. Due to my curiosity, I decided to go!

When we reached the restaurant, we sat to the seats nearest to Zita (not sure it was intentionally arranged or unintentionally). It was weird but great to have a close distance contact with her! There were 12 people attended this gathering (Including Zita). With a close distance observation, I can see her skin condition is very good. My feeling toward this gathering: a bit weird (since I'm not her fans) but somehow fun to listen to what they said and their interaction.

Will I attend for the next gathering? Maybe, who knows!

*This is the first time I dine in a British style fine dining restaurant, I actually have difficulty understand the menu ~

棉兰之旅Medan Trip ~ 3

2010年5月7日- 2010年5月10日 （7th May 2010 - 10th May 2010） * for detail, kindy visit to shinyuucorner.blogspot.com

Day 3

由于昨天的行程比较累，今天决定多睡一些。今天没有陈妈妈的爱心早餐，Lily和Yenty决定带我们吃棉兰有名的咖哩面。然后到当地的百货公司和市集走走吃吃。

Yesterday schedule was tiring so we wake up a bit late today. Today, Lily and Yenty decided to bring us to try the famous curry mee at Medan. Follow by then, we shopped around the shopping centre and famous local market.

图1：路途中巧遇的警察 A police that we saw on the way to TABONA. 图2：TABONA 的餐牌 TABONA's menu. 图3：瓶装菊花茶 chrysanthemum in botol. 图4：招牌菜 - 咖哩面。因为怕味道太辣，我叫的是咖哩鸡一碗配白饭。这样比较可以控制辣的摄取量。Famous curry mee. Because I scared it might be too spicy, so i ordered a bowl of curry chicken plus white rice.

Maimoon Palace 棉兰的皇宫，5000rupiah一人。大部分的装横都是来之世界各地的材料。图中有一张像五角型的建筑物，据说是战争时期一位皇子为了守住皇宫而在这里抗战致死。

Palace for the King, entrance ticket cost 5000 rupiah per each. Most of the interior material were imported from all over the world. The pentagon shape building shown in one of the pictures is (according to the legend) a place in which a prince used to defend for the palace from enemy.

Nelayan Tea House 一间售卖中式点心和美食的餐馆。它的榴莲pancake相当出名，我们也是因此而来。

Nelayan Tea House is a restaurant that served chinese dimsum and food. It's famous with its durian pancake (we aimed for this as well).

Pasar Rame 是个有名的市集，售卖各类货品和食物。 不过人逼人的并不好走。 我们买了很多小食回家和陈妈妈一起分享。注：我们在此遇上来自阿齐（那里发生了7.2级地震）的余震， 但我们却没感觉到任何不妥（Lily说她有点晕），只看到吊挂着物品在轻微的摇晃。

Pasar Rame is a crowded market (difficult to walk) sells all kind of products and foods. We bought many light foods to share together with Lily's mother. We experienced an aftershock from Aceh earthquake (7.2 level). However we didn't feel anything except Lily complained for dizziness. The things hang on the stall were shaking slowly.

Tip Top Restaurant， 我们在此享用西式晚餐。这里的装修一般但食物的味道却很美味，由其是炒饭。不过这里好多蚊虫，我又穿了短裤，所以一边吃一边抓痒。图1是一架旧式收银机。图2和3是这里有名的homemade雪糕，味道ok啦。

Tip Top Restaurant, a good dinner place for western food. The interior design is generally normal but the food is nice especially the fried rice. However, a lot of mosquito at here, I was very regret to wear short pants. Picture one is a old cash machine that displayed as a decoration. icture 2 and 3 is the famous homemade ice-cream, the taske is ok.

晚餐后，我们到Merdeka's Walk闲逛。送Yenty回家后， Lily带我们到她家附近一间庙宇参观。四个字来形容：富丽堂皇！墙上的雕刻，供奉的神像，还有小河流水的景色设计都美得不得了。我略嫌这里有点吵杂，破坏了神圣的宁静。Lily说着庙宇还可以租借来办演唱会，我还真有点吓到。图1是肯德基餐牌，有白饭的哦！

We moved to Merdeka's Walk after dinner. Picture 1 is KFC's Menu, fried chicken with white rice, special! After sent Yenty back, Lily brought us to a famous temple located in her residential area. A very superior temple in term of its design and decoration! But the environment is a bit noisy, a bit not respect to the godness. I was surprised when Lily said this temple sometimes use for concert and event celebration. How come??? 　

Day 4

Lily sent us to airport after taken breakfast prepared by Lily's mother. We took a fly back at 0930 on the 10th, Monday. As a regard to our family members in Malaysia, Lily brought us the famous cakes of Medan. Thanks to the pilot, the flight back to Malaysia was much more comfortable and steady. We arrived KLIA at about 1130. I'm going to miss you, Lily, and of course Yenty!

Random photos taken during the trip